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For those of you who do not follow my "husband" on facebook or twitter, let me give you a very brief idea of what I have been dealing with over the course of our marriage. Things seemed alright at first, two crazy kids who fell in love and wanted
it all. At first we were always together. But then that changed. We gradually drifted apart. I figured, ignore it and it will go away. As you can see, it didn't go away. Perhaps I pushed him away. No one knows for sure what happened, but I wish I could undo it.
In 2011 he admitted to me that he was doing drugs and heavily into pornography. I tried to be a good wife and forgive him and wanted to make an effort to make things right between us. Problem is, things can't change if only one party is willing to compromise. So we said "enough is enough" and decided to 'take a break' from romantic endeavors. That was 18 months ago. Things have only gotten worse from there, for him.
In the past 18 months I have overcome deep depression, and only suffer from mild depression now. I am much better at controlling my emotions and understanding the world around me. I still have a lot to learn. He went from wanting to try a new religion to shunning all religions in general, greatly increased his drug use, and alcohol intake. I don't know if anything has changed for him in terms of pornography, but I don't care.
As you can see from the picture above, he has taken things to a whole new level. Family and loved ones are concerned about his mental health. People we met when we moved to Oregon in the summer of 2011 no longer recognize him and can't believe he is the same person.
He blatantly mocks and disrespects the government, and parades around like he is the smartest (most correct) person in the world and everyone should do what he thinks is right.
I am all for equal rights. But this is insanity. I cannot sit here patiently any longer. I fear that this erratic behavior will put my children at risk.
As you can see from the picture above, he has taken things to a whole new level. Family and loved ones are concerned about his mental health. People we met when we moved to Oregon in the summer of 2011 no longer recognize him and can't believe he is the same person.
He blatantly mocks and disrespects the government, and parades around like he is the smartest (most correct) person in the world and everyone should do what he thinks is right.
I am all for equal rights. But this is insanity. I cannot sit here patiently any longer. I fear that this erratic behavior will put my children at risk.
So, I am asking you for help. Prayers aren't going to cut it anymore. I feel hopeless, trapped, and isolated. I don't know what to do or where to turn. I feel that I am prohibited from seeing my family, and abandoned by my friends (well, not entirely they are just keeping their distance). The only person I have here in Oregon to support me, is the one person I need to get away from. I don't want to take his children from him, but I have to think of what is best for them.
