It's been one of those weeks

I smile so that no one will see my pain, I avoid eye contact and phone calls. I just want to forget, but I can't. It's always there, taunting me. I feel so lost. I feel like despite my best efforts I'm getting no where. I just want to run off into the woods somewhere and get lost for a few days to clear my head. Some days I don't believe the pain will ever go away completely. Does "better" even exist?

UPDATE: Today at church the lesson in Sunday school was exactly what I needed to hear. If you haven't read it, read 2Nephi 4:15-35 that is exactly how I feel! Go Nephi!