a time of joy and sorrow

I am so excited for Christmas to come so I can see my older siblings again! But I am sad that we will be moving a few days later, and stressed that we don't even know where yet. I want to cry and sing. I am a mix of emotions. My mom is very disappointed that I decided not to decorate this year. I admit, it won't be the same, but there's no sense putting them up if I am just going to pack them up the next day. I am so overwhelmed right now. I just want to cry because there is so much to do, and we might end up getting rid of a lot. I feel homeless, sure we could live with our families but it isn't the same. There's no privacy, and we have to follow their rules and do what they want. I never thought it would be so hard to move. I've finally got some real, good friends and I have to leave(though a lot have already moved away). It's eating me up, not knowing where we will be living a mere 27 days from now. That seems so short in terms of moving, yet so long in terms of holidays. we want to have a big going away party. We'll let people know when if we actually have the time to do it with all the craziness. I feel so helpless. Two months is a long time to have your faith and patience tested. I gave up on getting Grace on a schedule and things actually seem to be better in that area. She gives me hope, and smiles to let me know she loves me and everything will be ok. she is so smart, and silly. she knows just what to do to make me laugh. I should stop moping and count me blessings.