teething tears

I am pretty sure that's what's going on. sometimes Grace just cries and cries until she falls asleep. we've tried orajel and tylenol and everything we can think of, but they don't help much. and she won't use the teething ring much, and only wants the green pacifiers sometimes. even chewing on a cold carrot worked once. I feel bad there isn't much I can do. our bishop said to press on her gums where it's red, but they look the same everywhere. I guess she got super sensitive gums like her mom. at least she's got her hands to chew on when it doesn't hurt so bad. she's at the stage where everything goes in her mouth. she loves her saucer now and would probably love a jumperoo. packing is coming along slowly. we're moving in with his family, and he said if I don't like it after a month I can go back to my family. still no job, but he'll get one soon. happy holidays everyone and keep in touch!

just hanging out

does he make her look big, or does she make him look big? I can't decide. She thought it was weird sitting by Kermit.

a time of joy and sorrow

I am so excited for Christmas to come so I can see my older siblings again! But I am sad that we will be moving a few days later, and stressed that we don't even know where yet. I want to cry and sing. I am a mix of emotions. My mom is very disappointed that I decided not to decorate this year. I admit, it won't be the same, but there's no sense putting them up if I am just going to pack them up the next day. I am so overwhelmed right now. I just want to cry because there is so much to do, and we might end up getting rid of a lot. I feel homeless, sure we could live with our families but it isn't the same. There's no privacy, and we have to follow their rules and do what they want. I never thought it would be so hard to move. I've finally got some real, good friends and I have to leave(though a lot have already moved away). It's eating me up, not knowing where we will be living a mere 27 days from now. That seems so short in terms of moving, yet so long in terms of holidays. we want to have a big going away party. We'll let people know when if we actually have the time to do it with all the craziness. I feel so helpless. Two months is a long time to have your faith and patience tested. I gave up on getting Grace on a schedule and things actually seem to be better in that area. She gives me hope, and smiles to let me know she loves me and everything will be ok. she is so smart, and silly. she knows just what to do to make me laugh. I should stop moping and count me blessings.

bargains at a price

this is about how much I don't like black friday, if you are a big fan don't read this, you may find it offensive.

I don't like black friday and I think it is a huge waste. every year people get trampled, beat up, and mauled all for the coveted tickle me Elmo. why? I thought Christmas was supposed to be about giving and caring, not greed! I have a super religious brother that doesn't shop on sundays, and he told me he didn't want any of my tainted sunday bought gifts last year...what I should have replied was that I didn't want any of his stupid bargain black friday gifts. I don't understand why people go crazy just to save a couple of dollars. I don't know, maybe it's just me. I just don't think it's worth risking your life. this year a guy got trampled to death because he had to open the door, which the shoppers tried to rip off the wall. and for what? then after he was reported dead, the greedy shoppers refused to vacate the store because they wanted their stupid bargains so much. people are dumb. that's why I try to get all my shopping done before thanksgiving, because I don't want to risk my life to get someone a present that they probably don't want anyway.